Back To Basics

Our beautiful daughter on our wedding day with our flower girl Izzy. I am so extremely proud of her!!!!!

When I started this blog I hoped that it would be so much more than just a baby or TTC blog. I wanted to be able to write about our lives. Our marriage. My big kids. Basically Life. Many people want to read about the little ones and how to get there. I know I do. But right now we are at a standstill with that until our HSG this spring. However, life goes on. Our blog is for me to document our life. The good. The bad. The ugly. Maybe someday we will look back and laugh at it all. I also have to admit that I really do enjoy reading just the mundane details of strangers lives. Just the ordinary stories of love, kids, marriage ups and downs. Makes me feel like we really are a normal family! Whatever normal is!


On a couple positive notes. Our daughter Little C got into college! She will be about 2 and1/2 hours away at a small, private liberal arts college. I am really in denial at this point. I am so excited for her to start this journey and all that the world has to offer out there. I am just not ready to let go of her that much. Making sure she gets up for school, eats, studies, managing her time. All of those things she will have to do herself. That. Is. So. Scary. To. Me. It just doesn't seem like she is old enough. It still seems like she was in elementary school last week. I truly am excited for her and all that the future holds! I just have keep reminding myself that this is what we work for as parents.....to set them free. Hoping that we have taught them while they have been ours during this time, everything they need to know. Trusting also that they figure out what they don't know. She is such a wonderful girl. I think she will do fine. Me? Not too sure! We still have time though and I am clinging to that with every minute I get to share with her.


I got an Macbook Pro this past weekend. This is so exciting. I have wanted a new laptop for so long. J has one for work, Little C has one for school. I had an iPad which I love but it was limiting in what it would let me do especially in blogging. I couldn't upload pictures and a few other things. It was limiting. This computer is awesome though! I don't really understand exactly how to use it. I am learning. My daughter has been teaching me which has been pretty funny!


The biggest thing going on with me is that I hurt my back at work last week. I am a nurse and my back is my bread and butter. I can't lose my back. It is what my livelihood is built upon. So, I am now dealing with pain, pain meds, heat, ice, chiropractors, orthopedics, and physical therapy. Oh, and the rolls and rolls of red tape called workers comp. I have my own orthopedic doctor and place that I was going to start PT (I had back surgery almost 5 years ago) My primary doctor had referred me to them on my last visit. Then I got hurt at work. The first appointment they can get me is Friday, March 2nd! So, I am basically stuck in the recliner until then. Out of work. Dependent on my wife. And in pain. Not a good place to be. I can't be treated anywhere until this appointment on the 2nd. I am sleeping in the recliner at night, which is not a great arrangement when you are a newlywed!


We are trying to start growing our family in the next few months so this is not somewhere I want to be. I am eight years older than my wife. I don't want to be falling apart before we even get started! I worry about being a burden on her. About her resenting me for needing so much help.


I just needed to vent. Have a pity party. I can't say a lot of this on Facebook because of the workers comp issue. I know I can say it here because I have no idea if many people even read this! And my name isn't here so I can just blog and blab away! That is very freeing! Besides, so many times just laying things out there helps others, or others help you. In that case, I would be glad to hear from anyone that has been through this. I know what I need to do. I just have GOT to do it. Exercise is going to be my saving grace for the rest of my life. Maybe this is the wake up call I needed. Maybe

Getting Healthy

J got the results of her blood work back today. No surprises found so that is good. Her liver panel was normal so she can start taking the Metformin. This helps to regulate her blood sugar. She has insulin resistance which is related to her PCOS. By getting her blood sugars in the normal range, this will increase her fertility. She is also closely watching what she eats. Just trying to eat an overall healthy diet. Low in bad carbs, eating the good ones, veggies, lean proteins, just an all around healthy way of eating. We are both trying to be mindful of what we are eating and making better choices. She has also returned to yoga which helps more than anything.


Our other baby is anxiously awaiting to hear back from the college she really wants. Talk about going from one extreme to another! We are really hoping that she gets into this college. I think it is truly the school for her. She will only be about an hour and a half away which is just perfect in my book. Not too far but far away enough to give her some independence.


We are excited about getting started on growing our family. Hopefully we will be able to start planning for her HSG sometime in June. That gives us 4 months to lose some pounds, regulate blood sugars, and start exercising consistently. All of which will increase fertility. Because I also have PCOS, I am also doing these same healthy lifestyle changes. Not to try to conceive but just to try to become a little healthier. Last week I was diagnosed with insulin resistance and won a brand spanking new blood sugar meter! Yep, I get to prick my fingers everyday, yay! My doctor has described it as " pre diabetes" this is all related to MY PCOS. So, yep we are really trying to make some big changes in our household. There is not a bad carb to be found in this house! (If I can just stop stealing the patient stash of graham crackers and peanut butter at work!)


We are excited to have a plan. Excited to get healthy together. Excited for one childs dreams to come true. Excited that we are becoming a family.